Almost there- yet, not sure if I can make it...

So this week has definitely been trying- I know, it's only Tuesday. My final oral exam/ master's defense is Thursday. It is really really really hard to find the time to study and be a mommy and wife at the same time. I have found that no matter how much I want to be a good student, being a good mommy triumphs it! So finding the time to actually study and study in peace has been a challenge. Justin has been a great husband and daddy and has taken over many of my duties since Saturday. He's tended to Noher and helped keep the "other" kids happy too. I'm sure Noah doesn't understand why I have been "absent" for much of the past few days. Night time is still "our" time. Justin has a hard time getting Noah down to bed. I joke that it's a mommy thing, and it does make me feel good that he wants me :). But last night was especially hard. Around 3:30PM my mom called me to ask some "vet" questions about our family dog, Jazzy. Apparently when my little sister got home from school to let her out, Jazz went out but laid down in the grass and wouldn't get up...not even cheese would get her up. So she stayed outside. I called Danielle and asked her some things...being a vet tech I knew right away it was not good news. Jazz was pale and not looking good. I had mom make an appointment at the vet. When my step-dad got home he and Willie (a great family friend) loaded Jazz into the car. She was still unambulatory. The kids said their good-byes (not knowing it would be their lasts). I unfortunately did not get to say my good-byes. Around 7PM my step-dad and mom called to tell me the bad news. She was bleeding internally (I had unfortunately already suspected it and told my mom to be forewarned about it) and they made the choice to put her down. She was our family's first dog. Not my first, but my first true love. We had a special connection...I know it's probably funny to those who don't have pet, but she definitely had/ has a special place in my heart. Needless to say, last night was a hard night to study. I will definitely miss my Jazz....so that leaves the rest of today, tomorrow and Thursday morning to catch up on study time. It has not been easy, nor do I recommend it- but I will be so grateful when I am done and have my Masters!! Now, if I can only make it to Thursday...if I were apt to having panic attacks, this week would be one big attack! Please pray that I make it!! And for Jazzy,you were by far the best dog I have ever had; I love you and miss you!!